Disoriented

I feel so lost.
All priority in my life seems to be a joke lately.
What will help me pull through life,
seems to be a second option,
I feel confused.
I feel insanely disoriented.
I can feel the clock ticking within,
saying that soon it will be too late.

I can hear shouts of a million people,

telling me that I am fucking stupid,

that if all of this goes,

I am a goner.

Yet, as if a nightmare had just visited,

I wake up and find myself sleeping through what is important,

and I feel relieved, thankful that it was all a dream,

which might become a reality,

if I don't do anything about it.

I feel lost,

I feel confused,

I feel so damn disoriented.