Deprived of Exposure

Why did I say it?

That's because I can't keep it within.

How did it happen?

Exposure,

exposure to something

I am too scared to behold.

Scared,

scared because I lose so much,

a dear one,

a bunch of friends,

and a lot more.

I want to deprive myself,

of the happiness,

of the warmth,

of everything beautiful

that Exposure gives me;

because I don't know what to do

about that one person

who knows me better than myself.

I can't hurt that person,

but Exposure keeps getting the better of me,

and then I remember,

That I have been deprived of everything beautiful,

and I give myself up

to happiness.