Fear and Confusion

It feels so weird,

when you don't know what you are feeling...

You scream,

but you don't know why.

You feel the fire burning you,

but you don't know why.

You sit down and cry for yourself,

but you don't know why.

There has been a time,

where I did things,

screaming, shouting, sabotaging, crying, howling,

but I never knew why.

I searched all over,

but I never found the reason why I am not what I was,

why I am a total stranger, even to myself.

What is this confusion...

when will I finally feel relief,

and know that my problems and fear will never pin me down to the ground again?